I so want to write about my husband to melepas geram, but I'm worried, coz I know if he read this, he'll think I'm over reacting. So I'm thinking, should I or shouldn't I? If I do, it's gonna make someone really unhappy and it'll probably means WAR between us. But if I don't, I'll probably give him a cold treatment when he gets home tomorrow.
But what the heck, right? This is MY blog. I'm entitled to write whatever I feel. I just want to know how you'd feel if you're caught in the same situation.
MrNordin had gone out of town for 3 days ~ company's team building in Guoman, PD. He left yesterday afternoon from the office, after I said goodbye to him in the morning. I didn't know how he'd get to PD (I didn't ask), but I presumed it must be in one of his colleagues' car, or bus. And this, I meant a male colleague.
Anyway, he didn't call me until late evening. I was driving home at that time. It did occur to me while I was still at work, that my husband could be up to something since he was so quiet all day long. Usually, he would text me when he was just leaving or on the way to the destination, but this time ~ nothing. But I just dismissed the thought, thinking that he may be too busy to call.
So, while I was driving home, he called. He said, he'd just arrived at the hotel ~ that was about 7 pm. Ok, fine. Then, I asked him, "How did you get there?" For a second, I thought I heard him stammer. He was clearing his throat, as if something has impeded his speech. I waited for his answer, fearing the worst.... and true enough, he said, he drove R's car to PD.
Who is R, you may ask? R is the company's MD ~ and a lady. Well, they used to work in the same company before they joined this new outfit (infact, she recommended my husband for this new job), but not in the same department. But in this current organization, they work closely together as they are part of the management team.
So, in my mind, I was thinking, you drove who's car?! Why do you have to drive her car? Who else were in the car?!! I wasn't happy.
Before I could even ask him all these questions, he went on to explain that R wanted to drive down to PD altho' the rest went on a bus. I supposed she invited my husband to come along, together with another male colleague, A. So, there were three of them ~ my husband driving (I just don't understand why he had to drive her car! I know lah she drives an X5, but isn't it a bit odd ?), R sitting at the passenger seat, and the other fella sitting behind ~ bersuka ria turun ke PD!
After I heard that, I was almost in tears. How could he let himself be drawn into that situation? Why can't he just go on the bus, or take his own car if he doesn't want to go by the bus. Why does he has to drive her car? Doesn't he find it awkward? If she insisted on taking her car, ask her driver to take her lah. Why he volunteered pulak?
To me a car is something very personal. You don't let just anybody drive your car. The fact that my husband drove this lady's car meant he doesn't think much of it, but little did he realise his wife may not be too happy with it. Come on lah... would you be happy if I let another guy drive my car, MrNordin?
I remember a long time ago, we were still not married then. I got into a major fight with MrNordin becoz I gave this guy, who happened to be a male colleague who lived near my place, a lift to work because his car broke down. He wanted a lift for a couple of days until his car was ready. MrNordin said he cannot tumpang my car because it was not proper. Itu baru bagi lift to work, belum lagi dia drive my car. Had he driven my car, mampus!!
That's why sometimes we fail to realise that certain things we do may hurt our loved ones' feelings without us realising it. My husband may think that what he's doing is harmless, but I think otherwise. I was really hurt when he told me about it, but I quickly ended the conversation. I didn't want him to know that I was upset coz then he would get upset too, and would start interrogating me when I just didn't feel like getting into that sort of argument at that time. But it definitely spoilt my mood for the rest of the evening.
So please, can someone help me? Am I over reacting? Am I a jealous freak? I've nothing personal against R, I've met her and her husband a couple of times. But a lady is a lady, right? It's different if he had driven the company's car. That I wouldn't mind so much. But her car??
(Well... I just don't know what's right and wrong anymore...)