I went shopping with my stepdaughters yesterday. Not for baju raya as they have those already, but for beads for our baju kurung (jahit sendiri, hantar upah mahal sangat). I’ve been meaning to take them out shopping, just us girls, but the little boy at home always prevented me from doing so. I rasa berat hati nak tinggalkan dia, even for one hour, coz I kesian kat dia tinggal kat rumah sorang-sorang.
But yesterday, I told myself I have to do this. I want my time with the girls too, right? So, pagi-pagi lagi I dah bangun, mandi and got ready while MrNordin and the little boy were still sleeping in bed. Then I quietly knocked on the girls’ door and told them to get ready as I planned to leave the house before the boy woke up. They got ready very fast and waited for me downstairs.
Just as I was about to walk out of my bedroom, the little boy woke up. “Mummy!”, he called out. Alamak…. Budak ni dah bangun pulak…! Seeing me all dressed up like that, of course our friend insisted that I go back to bed.”Mummy, sleep! Sleep!”, he said, signaling me to lie down next to him. I looked at the watch, it was almost 9.30am. Kena keluar cepat ni sebab nak pegi kawasan Masjid India. Kalau lambat nanti, sure ramai orang.
“Ok, ok.. “ I said and lied down next to him. I tepuk2 dia, tapi dia tak nak tidur balik. Dia suruh kita nyanyilah kat dia, cerita lah kat dia, nak airlah, nak susu lah... macam2! Orang dahlah lambat ni..
“Mummy, Lion & Mouse”, he said (he wanted me to read him his Lion & Mouse story). After that,
“Mummy, ai-lee-you” (he wanted me to sing that Barney song “I love you.. you love me…”). Then,
“Mummy, brother John!” (he wanted me to sing “Are you sleeping, brother John… “)
Adoi… naik penat I melayan dia. MrNordin was still snoring away. Budak2 dah tunggu kat bawah, this boy was not letting me go. Last-last, I just got up and go. I told the maid to distract him while we made our dash. Of courselah he cried, kan? He was screaming out loud when he heard me starting my car engine. “Mummy! Mummy! Nak kut! (nak ikut)!!!”
Punyalah sedih hati I when I heard that. Sampai keluar gate pun masih dengar dia menjerit sekuat hati. I felt like turning back, but I told myself, tak apa, kuatkan hati. He’ll be ok in a few minutes time. I drove out very fast so I won’t change my mind.
True enough, when I called the house half and hour later, my maid said he’s ok already. Tengah tengok TV while having his breakfast. Lega… then baru I could start the outing with a peace of mind.
So we got the beads from Semua House. Then we went to Megamall MidValley for a hair cut. I desperately needed to do my hair and the girls wanted a trim. Since my stylist was free that morning, I decided to bring them all there for their hair cuts. Usually, they'd do theirs at W, a hair saloon near our house. But since W was closed on Sunday, I thought might as well they follow me.
I got a new hair colour and cut, Nabila got a relaxant and cut and Nadira just had a trim. It was quite costly, but tak apalah, sekali sekala. Nabila said, "Mummy, just a hair cut for me lah... no need relaxant (coz it's expensive)..." That's very thoughtful of her, but I wanted her to have it coz it'll make her hair more manageable. And it's not often that she gets such treatment anyway. So that's ok.
Just as we were about to finish, I got an sms from MrNordin saying that they (the boys) were at Bangsar Village. So we met them there after the saloon. It was raining when we left MidValley. I was so happy to see Nizzar, tapi budak tu macam indifferent je. This morning when I left him, meraung bagai nak rak. Now macam tak ada apa pun... So much for the drama this morning, huh? Lain kali, I should have known better.
Lesson learnt: Do not feel guilty about leaving your toddler behind when you need to have your girls' day out.