My blog has been discovered by MrNordin!!! Arrrrgghhh!!!!
Last night, after we came back from doing our night banking, we sat down in front of the TV in our room. Nizzar was sound asleep. There was this war movie shown on HBO, which I wasn't really interested in watching. But MrNordin seemed so engrossed in it, so I left him alone and went into the study room to check on my blog. It was almost midnight and everyone else had gone to sleep.
I left the study room door open, just in case he barge-in unexpectedly, I'd be forewarned by the sound of him opening our bedroom door. As I was replying to some of the comments made on my earlier postings, he walked in! Alamak... macamana ni?? "You buat apa, B..?" he asked casually while lighting up a cigarette. His eyes were busy scrolling the PC screen. "Tak de apa... " I replied nervously. There on the screen was Superwoman's name, Madam Tai Tai, Ma & Brood....
"Superwoman? Tai Tai? Siapa ni.....?" he asked again.
"Tak de, just my friends..", I answered back. I wanted to hide the screen so much, but I just couldn't do it becoz he was so close!
Then he saw it... "MrsNordin? Haa... who's MrsNordin?"
Habis!! Hancur harapan I to keep this blog a secret from him! I had to tell lah, isn't it?!
Just so you know, the reason why I didn't tell him about this blog is because I wanted this to be my private journal. This is where I would voice my grievances, my feelings, my thoughts on him, the family, my past and everything else that matter in my life. Sometimes I need to do this to release my own anxiety. It's therapeutic. I was afraid that if he knew about it, it would change the way I write. It wouldn't be au natural anymore because then, I would need to choose the correct words or be more careful with what I say so as not to offend him. Tak syok lah, kan?
But anyway, tembelang sudah pecah. There was nothing much that I could do. The moment he knew, he took over my seat and read 'em all. I was so malu!! I wrote a lot of things about him on this blog, melepas geram punya pasal. Stories about his late wife and so forth. Sampai komen-komen pun habis semua dia baca! I was so afraid he would get mad at me!
But then, as he scrolled down the pages, I noticed that he was not really offended. Dia gelak saja. "Macam-macam cerita you, ya B..." he said cynically. Hee... heee... I tanya dia, you marah ke? He said tak. I said, "Jangan marah, aaa... kalau marah, nanti kena jual!" I think he was quite taken, too, by some of the compliments you all gave him, that's why dia macam tak marah sangat.
So now that my secret is out, would it change the way I write in this blog?
No, I don't think so.