Our CEO announced a new round of promotion again yesterday evening. Why I said "again''? Because we've had a series of these announcements over the last month or so. A LOT of people have been promoted recently, deservingly or not, and most of them are newcomers.
In the latest round, two people from my office were promoted to GM, including my boss. And these two have just joined the company last year. I've no qualm about my boss's promotion, I think he deserves it, but the other guy... besides the fact he's very close to the Big Boss, I'm not sure how he got the promotion. I've been with the Company more than 8 years now, but not once have I been promoted. Not that I'm complaining, it's just that sometimes who you know speaks louder than what you know, if you know what I mean.
When I look back at my career path, I wonder if I'm really cut out for the corporate world. 8 years, but stagnant. Not moving. Sometimes people come and ask me, "Eh, kenapa diaorang tak promote you, ya? Dah lama you kat sini... bla.. bla... bla.." Ok, I get offended sometimes when I hear this but to me, it's a matter of choice. If you want a promotion, you have to earn it lah. Work hard or work smart or whatever lah. But in my case, I'm just plain lazy. Is that a crime?
I don't want the extra responsibilities, the extra headaches, the extra working hours that would stress you up as you move up the career ladder. As such, I'm quite happy with what I'm doing right now. My boss is pretty flexible with time, I get to come in late or go off early when I need to, and he's not very particular about office protocols as long as I get my job done. Although I may seem relaxed at work, I don't compromise on my work assignment ~ that's one thing I don't do. Whenever there's a job to be done, I'll do my best. There are days when I have to stay back late to finish off a project, I'll stay back and I don't complain either.
Sometimes when I read other people's blogs or hear from friends who are now Directors/CEOs/VPs/someone important in their organizations, I envy them. They negotiate deals, seal big contracts, make important decisions, run million dollar companies, travel the globe for business meetings... But me? I'm just sitting here quietly in my cubicle doing my usual 9-5 job. Pukul 6, I balik rumah. By 7pm, I'm usually at home already, playing with my little boy. I don't use a Blackberry or carry a notebook to check my e-mails from home. Everyone else does that, including my husband, but for me, work is work and home is home.
Does that make me any lesser as a woman? Should I aim higher and go for that VP seat? Should I change my mind set about work? Do I have to play a different ball game altogether?
No. My answer is no.
I asked my husband one day if he wanted me to be more successful in my career. You know, kan best kalau orang tanya, what does your wife do? "Oh, she's a VP at so and so.". He said to me, it's up to you.
I, for once, cannot imagine myself as a VP in a big corporation. It was never in my dream. Ok, I'm not ambitious, but that's my choice and I think it's ok. Yes, it would be nice to see my name printed on the business card like that, but given the many roles and responsibilities that come along with it, I don't think I want that. And yes, you get to mingle with VIPs and high net worth people, and see your photos in Tatler or whatever, but I think can live without that.
And the money? Well... yes, I can do with a lot more money, but if it means having to sacrifice my time with the family, I think I can forgo that. I'm not good at juggling two things at a time. I know if I go for my career, my family will suffer. Either way, someone will get hurt. So, again it's a matter of choice.
But I'm happy for those friends or people I know who have made it to the top. I'm very envious of them infact! But I know I can never be in their shoes because 1) the size doesn't fit, 2) i don't feel comfortable in it, and 3) that's not my kind of shoes. Mine may not be a pair of Jimmy Choo's but they still make me happy wearing them...